Happened to go to Bombay Velvet movie in Luxe when my pocket is only with 17 rupees. No cash in ATM. No credit card. Just 17 rupees. Since booked through online, no problem for movie though
That's when I felt how it would be to survive without money. Started from office with 17 rupees. Had calculated everything in mind. 6 rupees for going. 10 for returning back since night service charges are little more.
Started waiting for bus. That's when all these green board, blue board, led light and ac buses came. No white board bus. Waited like 20 mins to get a white board bus. The crowd in the bus was like hell. I thought then 'How many people happen to be like me? That too I am like this for one single day, but its like this for many people for the whole 365 days' Boarded the bus in the footboard since it was getting late for the movie. Can't explain how it was really. Hands started paining like hell after 30 secs of hanging and had nothing in my mind except the thought of when next stop will come so that I can rest my hands. But have to bear the pain and can't show it in face since have to maintain the geth in front of the girls sitting before me ЁЯЩИ
After half an hour of hell, landed in the heaven, obviously the bus stop. That's when I started to get an ache in the bottom of my stomach. My mind said it was due to hungriness but my heart doesn't want to accept it since it will increase the intensity of the feeling. So I didn't accept that fact and started concentrating my attention on other things. So I looked around. There was a bakery and a guy in front of it eating samosa. A petty shop and a guy eating banana. Then, I thought 'maybe you should have accepted what your mind said and had that little ache' It's because of these sightings of food my appetite increased involuntarily and had no other choice than to bear the pain.
After sometime I couldn't bear it so I thought of distracting myself to some other things. I kept on looking. All I could find was shops and people eating in them. I thought 'Isn't there any other important work for these guys other than eating? Damn'. So I stopped looking around and concentrated on the road. Buses with couples together. Bikes with couples together. Cars with couples together. And even, a cycle with a couple pushing it together. I know there are other people like kids, single guys and single girls, aged people etc. But, I don't know why. Normally, I see single girls only. But today, really I can't find out why. I thought that the stomach pain was better than this.
But, I couldn't help it. Can't take my attention off that. So I started counting them. Took my phone and started noting them in QuickNotes app. 7 couples in buses (visible to me). 16 in bikes. 7 in cars. And that 1 in cycle. All these in a matter of 10 mins.
'Why not me?' I thought. I started to think about it. Maybe because I am afraid to be committed. Maybe because I am afraid of my MoM. Maybe because I am afraid that Love will kill my dream. Maybe because I am not worth for Love. It went on. That's when this thought arouse. 'Then why the hell you want to be like that huh?' Hmmmmm. It's because 'I am a guy. Simple as that'.
Now, as that Love-Thought-Process was over, I don't know what else to think and eventually started to feel the pain. Went to pani Puri shop. She, the owner, gave me a look like 'what do you want to eat?' If its normal time, I would have said 'Kaalaan'. But now, I had to say Water. She gave me a look not a bad one though and said okay. I took in a jug and drank as much as I can.
While drinking this weird thought came to me. If you keep on drinking water you will feel okay and won't feel the pain. So I thought of ways for it. If I do it in this shop, I know she would give me that bad look and some bad words too. That's when this Centerfresh bubble gum (so that my saliva will go in constantly as water on chewing) and immediately the idea of remaining 1 rupee came to mind. Wow. How fast my mind is. I never calculated this much fast before. The pressure. It keeps you sharp and constantly thinking. A beautiful mind.
So, I went to a petty shop and got a centerfresh, tore the cover, took it out and started chewing it. Felt like it is working. My thoughts were distracted again. I thought of going inside the mall. Went in. It was very worse here compared to outside. Full of couples.
When I made way through the second floor could see the paper dosa served in Vasantha Bhavan. Could see the popcorn in a guy's hand. Could see people talking selfies. Thought of taking a selfie came through. But lost it, since selfie with only myself could be the last pain I would resort to on this day. So I dropped that idea, went to restroom and came out to find a sofa outside the theatre.
Seeing the sofa, I thought 'Its my stomach not the leg'. Anyhow I sat in the sofa. It was full of popcorns and pepsi before me in the food counters. Don't know what to do to distract my mind. So, I took my phone again and opened QuickNotes app again. I started writing how I felt all this whole time and that is what you have been reading here in this post.
One thing I learnt was 'there is nothing possible in this world without money. Only with a dream you can get nowhere'. As Will Smith says in 'Pursuit of Happiness', 'You got a dream, you got to protect it. Period'
Maybe, this could be a bad conclusion to this post but I can't help it. I am writing what all are coming into my mind and this is what my mind is determined with as a conclusion. So, please bear it. If you can't, comments section is there. Feel free to use it
It's 9.50 and charge is down to 17%. Time for the movie is up and need the battery to show the message in movie counter. And more importantly, I don't want to miss that feel of 'When the lights go out and the movie starts'. Will meet in next post. Bye.
That's when I felt how it would be to survive without money. Started from office with 17 rupees. Had calculated everything in mind. 6 rupees for going. 10 for returning back since night service charges are little more.
Started waiting for bus. That's when all these green board, blue board, led light and ac buses came. No white board bus. Waited like 20 mins to get a white board bus. The crowd in the bus was like hell. I thought then 'How many people happen to be like me? That too I am like this for one single day, but its like this for many people for the whole 365 days' Boarded the bus in the footboard since it was getting late for the movie. Can't explain how it was really. Hands started paining like hell after 30 secs of hanging and had nothing in my mind except the thought of when next stop will come so that I can rest my hands. But have to bear the pain and can't show it in face since have to maintain the geth in front of the girls sitting before me ЁЯЩИ
After half an hour of hell, landed in the heaven, obviously the bus stop. That's when I started to get an ache in the bottom of my stomach. My mind said it was due to hungriness but my heart doesn't want to accept it since it will increase the intensity of the feeling. So I didn't accept that fact and started concentrating my attention on other things. So I looked around. There was a bakery and a guy in front of it eating samosa. A petty shop and a guy eating banana. Then, I thought 'maybe you should have accepted what your mind said and had that little ache' It's because of these sightings of food my appetite increased involuntarily and had no other choice than to bear the pain.
After sometime I couldn't bear it so I thought of distracting myself to some other things. I kept on looking. All I could find was shops and people eating in them. I thought 'Isn't there any other important work for these guys other than eating? Damn'. So I stopped looking around and concentrated on the road. Buses with couples together. Bikes with couples together. Cars with couples together. And even, a cycle with a couple pushing it together. I know there are other people like kids, single guys and single girls, aged people etc. But, I don't know why. Normally, I see single girls only. But today, really I can't find out why. I thought that the stomach pain was better than this.
But, I couldn't help it. Can't take my attention off that. So I started counting them. Took my phone and started noting them in QuickNotes app. 7 couples in buses (visible to me). 16 in bikes. 7 in cars. And that 1 in cycle. All these in a matter of 10 mins.
'Why not me?' I thought. I started to think about it. Maybe because I am afraid to be committed. Maybe because I am afraid of my MoM. Maybe because I am afraid that Love will kill my dream. Maybe because I am not worth for Love. It went on. That's when this thought arouse. 'Then why the hell you want to be like that huh?' Hmmmmm. It's because 'I am a guy. Simple as that'.
Now, as that Love-Thought-Process was over, I don't know what else to think and eventually started to feel the pain. Went to pani Puri shop. She, the owner, gave me a look like 'what do you want to eat?' If its normal time, I would have said 'Kaalaan'. But now, I had to say Water. She gave me a look not a bad one though and said okay. I took in a jug and drank as much as I can.
While drinking this weird thought came to me. If you keep on drinking water you will feel okay and won't feel the pain. So I thought of ways for it. If I do it in this shop, I know she would give me that bad look and some bad words too. That's when this Centerfresh bubble gum (so that my saliva will go in constantly as water on chewing) and immediately the idea of remaining 1 rupee came to mind. Wow. How fast my mind is. I never calculated this much fast before. The pressure. It keeps you sharp and constantly thinking. A beautiful mind.
So, I went to a petty shop and got a centerfresh, tore the cover, took it out and started chewing it. Felt like it is working. My thoughts were distracted again. I thought of going inside the mall. Went in. It was very worse here compared to outside. Full of couples.
When I made way through the second floor could see the paper dosa served in Vasantha Bhavan. Could see the popcorn in a guy's hand. Could see people talking selfies. Thought of taking a selfie came through. But lost it, since selfie with only myself could be the last pain I would resort to on this day. So I dropped that idea, went to restroom and came out to find a sofa outside the theatre.
Seeing the sofa, I thought 'Its my stomach not the leg'. Anyhow I sat in the sofa. It was full of popcorns and pepsi before me in the food counters. Don't know what to do to distract my mind. So, I took my phone again and opened QuickNotes app again. I started writing how I felt all this whole time and that is what you have been reading here in this post.
One thing I learnt was 'there is nothing possible in this world without money. Only with a dream you can get nowhere'. As Will Smith says in 'Pursuit of Happiness', 'You got a dream, you got to protect it. Period'
Maybe, this could be a bad conclusion to this post but I can't help it. I am writing what all are coming into my mind and this is what my mind is determined with as a conclusion. So, please bear it. If you can't, comments section is there. Feel free to use it
It's 9.50 and charge is down to 17%. Time for the movie is up and need the battery to show the message in movie counter. And more importantly, I don't want to miss that feel of 'When the lights go out and the movie starts'. Will meet in next post. Bye.
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